Remembering Pain

The unbroken self isn’t wounded it’s witnessing.

Not hidden, not damaged simply obscured by the noise of self-protection.

When the mind no longer seeks to preserve the past what remains is presence the foundation of all transformation

🕊NAFi🕊

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WE LONG FOR THE LIFE WE KEEP REJECTING

Some memories live in the brain.

But the ones that change us?

Those come from somewhere deeper.

When a person experiences deep pain or trauma,

their brain—trying to protect them—shuts the door.

I read that some children instinctually forget the sound of a slammed door to avoid fear (speak on this) the brain blocks the full memory of trauma—not to deceive us, but to help us survive—though it also delays our healing.

It lets them remember just enough to survive but not enough to transform.

So most of what we call "remembering" remembering the bad remembering the good remembering what is right what is wrong remembering what works is really just repeating what our body and chemistry allow.

It's like we’re stuck re-watching an old scene without knowing there’s a whole story behind it.

There exists a deeper form of memory—not stored in the brain, but embedded in the part of us that was never broken.

Ironically, it is often that very part that triggers fear or resistance whenever meaningful change approaches.

Much of what we suffer from is not raw pain, but patterned discomfort we’ve learned to tolerate & conditions we’ve quietly made peace with.

What we’re uncovering here is this: the key isn’t just the energy itself, but how we manage the responsibility of the energy we’re given.

So when the energy for transformation appears—often disguised as the opposite of who we are currently being—we tend to reject it.

It is, in fact, the very vision we think about in private—the one we quietly long for behind closed doors—yet reject when it arrives, because it often appears in the form of its opposite.

And the opposite is usually stored in the category of what we believe we don’t want, which is precisely why we’re not living it.

When we close the door, we’re often envisioning the answer—not to reject it, but to give ourselves time to prepare for how it might arrive.

And when it does, if we've built enough trust in ourselves to face it in whatever form it takes, it may no longer feel like a threat—only a return.

If memory can be chemically manipulated, what part of us is truly remembering & what part is simply repeating what our chemistry permits?

In my observation, the deeper part of us recalls not only the trauma itself, but the exact moment we stopped choosing to evolve.

That same part—the one energy that holds the original code of wholeness—is most clearly accessed through higher responsibility, refined self-honesty, and expanding spiritual faith.

Reminds me This is like what Jesus meant when He said,

“The kingdom of God is within you.” (Luke 17:21)

He wasn’t pointing to the sky—For me he was pointing to the person in the reflected in the mirror

 those undiscovered inner reservoirs of life force

that place where truth is alive & thriving untouched, even by trauma.

So in dedication to Jihad I read some bible &

When Moses stood before the burning bush,

the fire didn’t burn him. I was able to perceive this go round that

That’s the same fire inside us—the knowing that cannot be harmed & never dies.

But most people never approach it,

because THE RECORDING DEVICE NOT USED CORRECTLY CALLED MIND convinces them it’s dangerous.

So they keep looping in pain,

were when in my movie—healing doesn’t come from remembering more pain.

It comes from connecting to the part of us that was never harmed.

When I read The world it says, “Survive what happened.”

Then God whispers, I literally placed the answer inside the silence you keep running from.”

“I left it in you—so you’d never be without Me

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